I waved 2013 goodbye with a heavy heart, knowing it was by far the best year in my humble lifetime.
How about we get all the ‘milestones’ out of the way first. Proud to say that I finally shed my Facebook 20, and dare say this shell of mine, after two half-marathons and countless torture sessions by Shaun T, is at her fittest condition yet. When one fine night I couldn’t zip up a dress bought in US, a time when I was supposed to be at the pinnacle of my weight, was the straw that broke the camel’s back. Fortunately, as the exercise regime slowly became a habit and I was getting more motivation by improving performance, it was then I internalized the fact that working out is not a means to an end, but a lifetime commitment. After that, results naturally followed.
Another big milestone was paying off my student loan! This was one of my top priorities since graduation and how liberating it is to be debt free (for now)! That certainly deserved a pop of champagne, but there’s still a ton of work to be done in terms of managing my finances. Now I have to be serious about thinking of how to invest my savings.
Having said all that, a great year isn’t great because only good things happened. There were certainly tears here and there, but nothing seemed as bad as when it happened in hindsight. When my move didn’t work out back in June, I was rather devastated. It took alot not to be bitter and to respond like a real adult, especially when you were the victim of other people’s poor expectation management. I’m glad I was able to be a bigger person in this whole episode. And what I learned about myself was that when push comes to shove, when an undesired situation arises, I have the strength and perhaps the right morals to respond with the right attitude. Clear eyes, full hearts, can’t lose.
The past two years at Facebook were nothing short of incredible. The experiences and exposure I got boosted my self-esteem and confidence to unparalleled levels. For the first time in a very long time, I had the real courage to experiment new things and be less of a control freak who needs to perpetually have a plan for everything. It was liberating to start breaking out of the conservative and risk adverse Asian mentality I was brought up in. This could also be one of the reasons why my five and a half year relationship just didn’t feel right anymore – that’s a story for another time. A friend told me I am a real life Benjamin Button, seeing as I only going through certain life experiences at this age. Hey, better late than never!
One thing I am most grateful for, always, is the people that I have the privilege to be surrounded by everyday. I believe you’ll have to be rather blessed to be able to work with people that you can call your friends and family. And that is exactly how I feel. Blessed. Sometimes I wonder what did I do to deserve this. Perhaps I did something right in my past life, not that I believe in reincarnation. Then again, I should just graciously accept the gift of life and continue to pay it forward.
2014 is a brave new world.